You call it ****ing up but it sounds to me as though you both did and didn't want to tell her something and this was the solution you came up with. You'll get to see, over the next few days or so, how it worked for you. In time you'll come up with ways to communicate even more clearly that aren't so hard on you.

One likely result is that you'll soon find out which of your friends are and aren't willing to stick around and hear more. Of course if they don't freak out, you'll then be faced with the problem of what to say next.