Does anyone else have this problem? It seems like when I call my friends IRL and try to get together to do something they always are too busy for me. Maybe I am just that bad person that my father always said I was. I'm beginning to believe that he is right, that no one will love me and want me. It's not like I call that often to go and do things. Most of my friends I talk to at least once a week. It's mutual, they call me, I call them, it's always a 2 way street. But when I call to actually get together to do something fun, I am always turned down. Always.

I'm beginning to think that my friends will talk over the phone but never really want me. They never really want to be with me, and well...maybe they are all just blowing smoke up my butt and pretending to be my friends.

I think it's time I leave and go back to my hole and just leave everyone else alone. At least there I will be safe and no one can hurt me anymore. Sounds like a good idea. I'm not worth anything anyways.