A few years ago I went through a pretty traumatic experience and for years afterward I kept finding out more information about what happened and how severely I was betrayed/lied to, so the bad feelings and anxiety never really eases. As soon as I started to feel better, something new would start crashing down. I've been good about limiting triggers and feel a lot better about the original upsetting situation as long as I'm not triggered. However, I still have bad anxiety and it pops up every day, sometimes for minor situations, sometimes remembering problems with people, and sometimes I don't even know the cause.

I have resorted to taking 1mg Klonopin almost every day (it used to be 3x a day in the spring). Before the upsetting situation happened (though I was diagnosed already with PTSD) I only needed Klonopin maybe once every couple of weeks, at .5mg. I can't afford to regularly see my therapist right now, though I did see her recently. I'm disappointed in myself for not controlling my anxiety better on my own and for relying on medication so much. It's just that other techniques of controlling anxiety often don't work enough. I really want my anxiety to get more under control...