Hi. I just had a girlfriend call me and tell me that she needs some space in our friendship. I've been very down since my diagnosis (brain tumor) and since my surgery and finding out that they didn't get the whole tumor. I don't have a spouse or kids or parents, so I rely on my friends as family. I guess maybe I have burdened them too much with how down I am all the time because now I'm losing one of my closest friends. I guess I'm very difficult to be around. Who would want to be around someone who is depressed and worried all the time? I just don't know how to turn this all around. I see everything as the glass is half empty right now. I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. What else is going to go wrong? I'm scared now I'll lose my other friends as they are all a tight-knit group that know each other.
I guess I need to hide how I feel and be more upbeat when I'm around people. It's just so hard to do. And I don't know what to talk about with people. I think I'm boring and depressing to be around.
I don't know what else to say. I feel so sad right now.
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