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Originally Posted by thedivinemrsm
I went in yesterday, and she looked at me with this expression of "Oh God, it's you again." I only see her once a month. My depression is treatment resistant so I'm trying anything and everything and asking a lot of questions, leaving no stone unturned. I told her that I wasn't sleeping on what she gave me and she got frustrated and said, "Well, you tell me what you want to sleep. I say take whatever you want, whatever works for sleep." Um, a 1000 xanax with 100 refills please? Anyhoo...she gave me some scripts for stuff that isn't working, and told me i need to be on in for two more months "to really see if it isn't working". So I feel like that move was to keep me out of her hair for two months. I already have huuuuge issues with feeling as if I'm a burden to everyone, I really didn't need it from her of all people. Anyone experience this? What to do? What to say? I'm at a loss of gigantic proportions. Thanks....  |
Your pdoc is at least mostly correct in that it sometimes takes awhile for the side effects and true results of medication to surface and stabilize.
There are times when I've personalized just how someone else has treated me. "It must be me, they totally hate* me." -- but in reality, it could be something completely different. Maybe they have a car repair bill that's overwhelming with all the other payments being due; it could be they're gassy from eating that bean burrito at lunch and are terrified they're going to exhibit flatulence in public.
My question for you is: What can you think of to overcome this with your pdoc? You have myriad choices in this regard, whether it's to kick her to the curb because you feel she's not helping you or facing that fear of discussing with someone who may be intimidating that you aren't appreciating her behavior.
Honestly I don't know which it is in your particular case, yet having been in similar situations in my past I understand some of the frustrations that you're experiencing.
Remember - you are paying (whether it is monetarily or an investment of time and desire to heal) for these services. She is there to help you, not judge you or treat you any less than you deserve. Doctors are human too, but there is a definite element of supporting those in need that some of them forget. I don't know what your options are in assessing and changing your situation with your pdoc, but I wish you the best as you approach it.
-K