((((((((((((doogie)))))))))))))))

Yes, there was a time when I was worried that I needed T too much. It was during the time leading up to telling my story, and during the telling of the story itself (over a couple of YEARS). I felt so alone and so scared and he was truly the only person at that time who knew what was going on. But even though *I* thought I needed him too much, *he* was fine with it. A huge gift he gave me was trust that I would grow and heal at my own pace...he has never tried to force me to need him less.

I still need him, but it feels different now. I have more supports in place in my life, and, more importantly, more support within MYSELF. I think I've internalized some of the lessons I've learned from him, and there is just more strength inside that I can draw on now. I miss him when I don't see him for a long time, and I still see him twice a week sometimes, and leave him messages/e-mails between appointments...but the "desperate" quality of it has diminished. His trust in me has taught me to trust myself, and our years together have taught me to trust him. So, in my experience, it does get better (but slowly!)

Do you feel like you need T too much, doogie? Is it scary?