You musn't hold yourself responsible for anything other people do - they're capable of making their own decisions based on what they know. If you hide stuff from them, that won't help much either.
When we face crises in our lives I think it really shows where peoples' strengths lie. Some friends have strengths in different areas. Your friend might need space for a million other reasons than you - maybe, given some time, you can ask her what's up. She might be pleased you did.
One of my closest friends has also been suffering pretty acute anxiety and depression in the past year. They can be very difficult company at times, but I still want to be around them. Despite their difficulties, they are rewarding and loyal and have as much to give me as I (hopefully) them, if we let each other. Secretly, I also am a little bit pleased to have them come talk to me when they are down. I feel guilty about this, because obviously I would like them to be better, but it is nice that they feel they can come to me.
Have my best wishes ((((((iluuvpups)))))
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What if you slept? And what if in your sleep you dreamed?
And what if in your dreams you went to
heaven and there you plucked a strange and
beautiful flower?
And what if when you awoke you
had the flower in your hand?
Ah! What then?
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
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