I used to think that there was nothing wrong with me smoking weed and drinking quite a bit. I now smoke weed every single evening, and have started in the day when I can too. The first think I think about after I wake up after I've looked at the time is when I can have my first joint. (I live with my parents). I rely on the buzz it gives me, I can't get through the day without it. I've been into work stoned and even sneaked a joint at my boyfriends house half way through the evening the other night. If I can't smoke I get extremely irritable and lose my temper, and I can't sleep.
I've started drinking more and more, and although it isn't like im drinking first thing in the morning, I crave alcohol, and when I get to the pub and have a drink, it is like relief runs through me. I often buy the drinks just so I can get mine doubles constantly.

I suffer from depression, and when I'm particularly low I crave alcohol and get stoned.

It's started to hit me that maybe I do have a problem with this, but because I'm not doing it from the minute I wake up, is it really that bad? This realisation that maybe I do have a problem is as scary as hell.

I'm 21 and doing nothing with my life, I've dropped out of uni and just have a weekend job.