This is what my day starts out? I step in and take a hot shower then. I feel refreshed and comfortable. I'm still depressed and feeling rejected? I feel like no one wants or needs me in their life anymore?! It's like the best person has vanished from off the face of the. Earth and he's deserted me and. I'm standing in a vacant area of some scary place? It's like he doesn't care enough to come check on me either. I'm at a lost cause and. I can't do anything right for him anymore?!?! I'm spinning on my head and these other's are me too?!?