Guess suga's right...

At least I think my meds are working, there is commentary about me not being so "much" anymore... I've lost my muchness.

I still feel all the symptoms of my hypomania, but somehow don't enact upon it... eg. Light and sound sensitivity, racing thoughts blah di blah di blah...I miss my hypomania, it was my favorite me, and for a while I thought it was the TRUE me...

My depressions are not as regular as clockwork any longer, they were usually untriggered, now I THINK it takes a trigger to set it off... not too sure as this "muchless me" is still very new, but that's how I see it.

I hated the never ending emotional roller-coaster, and it's sorta nice to know the difference between coming and going, but I feel like I lost something, like a part of me died with the birth of this mellow me... does that make sense?

I think I'm just being emo now, end rant.