Thanks sanityseeker

I'd very much like to keep my muchness, who knows maybe it's not dead and gone, just lying dormant with the med tweak??

I've always been described as extroverted, vibrant, flamboyant (by others) and I don't feel like that anymore, and it saddens me, but then I feel guilty for the sadness b/c I at least have some sense of normalcy now, where others are not as lucky... It's almost like I've become more introverted, less involved in my surroundings, YUCK.

IDK, really IDK, but I guess I'll just ride it out and speak to my pdoc.

Thanks for reading my selfish spoilt brat rants...