Thanks guys.

My T *does* have a bad habit of going into defense mode when I bring up issues that relate to something he says or does.

Usually, by the next session he's incorporated what I said.

But, I ended up crying and still being upset. I didn't leave with a good feeling, just more tired.

I forgot to pick up his check when I left the house and didn't have my checkbook with me, so I'm going to drop payment by today. I may include a letter or I may not.

I don't feel like expressing anything else to him right now.

I'm gonna go next week with an open mind, and a heart as open as I can manage and see what pops up.

He's earned that for sure.

It's not like I'm trapped into his care or anything.

If it stops being more help than hurt in the long run, I'll terminate.

It's a biggee, but not a biggee at the same time you know?