I KNOW I need to end this relationship, but every time I try to talk to her I panic. The last time we broke up, everything was crazy. Ranting on the phone, I changed my cell (my niece, where I was staying wouldn't change her #),leaving rambling messages, coming to the house. This keeps coming back to me & I put it off again....
So far I've got a new cell phone & have the support of my family. In my head it's so easy, I know my reasons are valid. I don't know why I continue to let her have so much control over me. M's joke with friends is that "Chris is always wrong & everything is aways Chris's fault", the thing is, in truth, it's no joke.. She is narssistic, expects me to do everything when we are together & is totally controlling.
The only reason I haven't left this relationship 2+ yrs ago(when my T wanted me to) is because M needs open heart surg,& at that time I said I would stay & see her thru that, then leave. M had to get a lap band to lose weight before having surgery, which was going ok till 9 mos ago. she went off her plan & isn't losing wt anymore. Her heart is stable & the surgeon says she could go yrs bsfore getting surg, she still has to lose the wt. I'm no longer willing to continue being treated this way.
I just have to get brave enuff to say it....