Thanks Ygrec23. I appericate your input. However, I used to be that needy person IRL. I used to only call or see my friends when I was needy. Now for about 6 months or so, I have had it well under control. I talk to my friends over the phone about every day life stuff now. I don't burden them with all my issues and my needyness is confined to here or my T for the most part.

Now every now and then we all slide a little and need a little extra help. That is not what I am going for. I am going for friends, just to be friends, hang out not talk about serious stuff....you know...just be normal.

So I don't understand why I am still shut out by these people. Someone of these people have never seen me in crisi mode and don't even know all the struggles I go through. At least 1/2 of them think I live a very normal life, not one that is filled with all the BPD issues.

I understand what you are saying, but I don't feel I am that person anymore that needs friends to help keep me afloat. My T and I have worked very hard on that and have made wonderful progress. I just want to go and do everyday stuff with friends like they would do with others,.