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Old Aug 20, 2010, 08:22 AM
doogie doogie is offline
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"although my T says she will become less important to me, I don't know if I believe her."

This is exactly what my T says. That for now, my need for her is ok - that it is part of the process of healing and the calls/emails/sessions it's all ok because it is ok to need her and I won't need her as time goes on. But yes, it does scare me. I'm afraid my neediness will push her away. I've told her this and she says it isn't true, but I can't help thinking that one day she will just throw up her hands and say "ENOUGH!" and walk away. During our last session, she even told me that my feeling guilty for needing her would slow our progress - to not feel guilty for needing her. But I don't know if it's so much guilty or scared. And maybe it is scared that the "need" will never go away. I know I can't do therapy for ever. I know I can't "need" her forever. I'm afraid now that I have a taste of what it is like to need her and have that need met by her, that I won't ever get it met any other way. That terrifies me. the pitiful thing is, I have a husband that loves me and treats me well, I have children that love me - but the t relationship - it touches something that those other relationships don't. I don't understand it, and I guess it does scare me. I don't know. Thoughts?