I think that when we look at others, we don't see the things that they suck at in life because most people are pretty good at hiding those things from others......I think that everyone has things they suck at in their life & only if we know them in a very personal way are we ever able to see those things in them. You are not alone......try to remember that everyone has things in life that they suck at.

I remember feeling suicidal when we allowed a person to move into our spare room (his mother had been in the medical hospital be next to me when I was being treated for one of my bad times with anorexia). It was so stressful that I ended up having suicidal feelings. Bad move on my part because I ended up in the psych ward & he was alone in the house while my husband was at work.....many things ended up missing including much of my meds which only made matters worse when I got home again......ugh......yep.....that was a huge period of my life where I really sucked at it.

The good thing is that time passes & some of the things we experience when we are sucking at life we learn from & can end up making changes so that we don't continue sucking at all the things in life forever....they just change to other things along the path.....sometimes more & sometimes less are the things we suck at, but we do survive in spite of ourselves & the bad times & grow & learn from our experiences. We may be stuck with some of the things, but even those change with time & some times are better than others.

Hopefully this really bad time will pass & you will have a time where you feel some better to give yourself a chance to regroup & take a breather. Sometimes we need our pity parties to let off the steam & know that we aren't alone. This can help to make us feel a bit better also especially when we know we aren't alone & can pity party together with others who have similar feelings.....good to know we aren't alone.

Take care & hope you are feeling better about yourself soon.