Denise: Sorry you are going through such a bad depression right now. All I can say is don't give up. There is a right meds combo out there for you. I waited 2 years for mine and it was horrible. Felt the same way as you're describing. But it was worth the wait. I can remember those thoughts of "I'm wasting space and resources on this planet that could go to someone else who actually wants to live," but they are a lie. The illness is lying to you. You have just as much right as anyone else to be here and you won't feel that way forever. Hard to believe, but in my experience it's true.

Me: I feel kind of anxious about what to do with my day. I wasted 4 hours yesterday afternoon playing Spore (a computer game). I really need to read or do something productive, but the temptation to play the game is high. Maybe I'll read a chapter in my therapy book and reward myself for finishing it with some game time.

to everyone