Me and my best friend Lolly were like twins, we had known each other all our lives and were inseprable. I have already posted a thread about her tragic death and how i had to watch it ( called I watched my friend been stabbed to death (please read it)) when i was seven. Today i was sorting out all my picture from when I was younger and I found 2 files filled with pictures of us too together, as soon as I saw them I burst in to tears, I cryed for hours and now just thinking about her make tears run down me face, I wish it was me how had been killed or even both of us so she wouldn't of had to go through all of this pain. I see her face everywhere, Memories that were forgoten have come back and it hurts some much, she was the better person so why did she die? And why did i have to make her come to the park when she didn't want to? its my fault she died! so is the pain i am suffering from a punishment?