I responded to your other thread and I'm sorry for your friends tragic death. I hope you're receiving the proper counseling from witnessing this traumatic event. I don't believe for 1 second, this is your fault - it's that awful man's fault. Did they find out who did this??? You don't deserve to suffer for her death. For some reason God wanted her to die that day.

When I was 20 and my mother had a severe stroke and was in danger of dieing - I remember praying to God, so I could take her place. Now that I'm older I realize this isn't the right way to think. We shouldn't de-value our own lives - therefore you deserve to live and have a fulfilling life. Your friend wouldn't want you to be sad .