Well, it's been a rough few weeks for me. I went off my mood stabilizers, had a frightening manic episode with psychotic features, and now I'm sinking into a depression. Today I almost took a handful of klonopin just because I don't want to be awake (not because I want to die). At the urging of some online friends, and at the behest of my psychiatrist, I'll be going to the hospital tonight.

I'll be out of touch for a few days, but I'm hoping that they can get me sorted out quickly. Depression combined with impulsivity is a bad combination and I'm not entirely safe.

Thanks everyone for your support. I look forward to rejoining you soon.