A few weeks ago I destroyed my TV, Blackberry, Most of my Clothes. A few holes in the walls...Spent 1 week inpatient in the VA. put me on Depokote and Kolopin...
Today I spent 250$ on safety glasses...They were bugging me from the second I put them on..But at time I forgot I was wearing them... Now at home I put them on was going to read a book "about Bipolar".. well the glasses are destroyed. booked is in shreads. tried to bust a Dewalt drill by slamming it on the counter,just but a huge dent in counter...

I really Don't think my DR knows what the hell she is Doing...I feel ok for a week, now I'm starting to feel like **** again.....

What The **** is wrong with me...I can't go on. destroying everything....

I only really feel ok. after drinking a gallon of water..Always thirsty...

Usually I eat to much. but puke some up...

Always Tired...Body wore out...muscles and joints always Hurt...

I tell her this and I get..Thats your Primary DR concern...

I have Tramadol and Vicoden for Pain. But if I take a Tramadol I feel dizzy...

So Damn Tired of This, If the rest of my life will be like this then **** it.