wow,i can relate,,i feellike everything would be wonderful if i could just make that someone happy,,BUT,,i cannot get over things,,so i live a life of turmoil in my head,,it is very hard to think about being alone,,if i can hold it all together without someone to tell you they love you and its ok,,that your ok,,they say it is lonelier in a bad relationship than it is to be alone,,,once i get the help i need i may be able to determine if my relationship is doing more harm than good,,if so i will leave , if it is more the way i view it than i may learn to change my view...are you talking to anyone about this(doc?)..maybe there are some skills you could be taught,,,thats what im hoping..have a good night