Now that I read the post about how a T views a client who is in SU mode a lot - which happens to be one of my big issues right now as I go through trauma work and mid life crisis and work burn-out... Well now I am seriously thinking part of the reason I keep mentioning my very deep and strong urges to my T may be due to my mind subconsciously thinking I can push him away. That if he knows this about me, he will not want to like me or help me.

I wonder if my fear of being hurt when I trust is so deep that it is keeping me on edge emotionally because my mind knows I will tell T about these thoughts? And if I tell T - I expect to have T withdraw any emotional support or warmth from me. If that happens, my mind thinks I will be safer because I will not be in a position to be hurt somehow by T.



Anyone else have this issue or any input?