(((( Perna )))))) Thank you very much for your insight and sharing what you went through. I do believe that SU is one of the hardest topics to honestly talk about with a therapist. For me, I know I have a need to be totally honest with my T. Life has just been so much. And I know the trauma work has taken a toll on me.

The more I feel about this ... not think .... well, I fear most of all being my father. UGGGG!!! So I am feeling that I know inside myself I am being honest with T about this topic because at this point, it is not just something to talk about. I wish it were. But I do know me. And it really is my truth. But I also know I am working very hard to flip that internal switch that will make me NOT want that reality as much as I want it. And that is just the raw truth of the situation.

So maybe I am afraid that my T will hate me the way I hate my dad? IDK.
Something to consider for sure.