yea, I can totally appreciate the double life, I've been an expert at living it for years. I will sleep all day, but get up an hour b4 hubby comes home from work to fix dinner and pretend to be ok. It doesn't always work though, he sees thru it. I try to avoid friends and social situations with one excuse after another. These days I seldom turn my phone on, except to collect voice mails. Pretending has taken it's toll on me. I recently tried to confide in a friend, but she totally didn't get it and I ended up feeling hurt and alone. I have a T, but it's rare that I confess what's going on with me...I tend to pretend there as well.