I'm with oceanwave on this one. I think "care" here means clinical not emotional care.

However, it seems to have brought some thoughts to the surface that I do think you need to bring up with your T. He sounds like a great guy, who is interested in knowing your truth. There is a lot of freedom in that.

I talk about suicide a lot in my therapy. I'm not actually suicidal, but it IS the ultimate way NOT to feel trapped you know? For me it is a measure of control over my life. My T recognizes this and doesn't freak out about - usually.

It's your therapy, and you should talk about whatever you like. You're right. Your T is trained for it, but most of all, he knows YOU.

Peace.