Thought about this... Yes, I do feel like I need my T too much. But I needed to be protected as a child and that was not done. So the damage was great. Now I need my T because I have to learn to take care of myself for the first time. I need to learn how to be my own protector. That is something I should have learned as a child.

I am angry that I was not given what I needed when I was a child that would have allowed me to not need my T as an adult.

But I am learning now and that is what counts. The more I learn, the less I will need my T. It just takes some serious growing up and growing pains.