I'm sorry too that you're feeling so alone. Been there, especially of late. Moved, and though I really like the place and am very glad of the move, I don't know anyone here aside from my BF, and as wonderfully sweet as he is, still... Please try not to erase your posts, ok? I find that interacting here is a big help in feeling connected, not so lonely and that it is with people who understand, so that is a real bonus.

As an aside, I don't have tv anymore and haven't for a couple of years.(Yes, there is one, but it's not connected and it's only for watching DVDs mostly from the library.) Realized that I spent too much time vegging out in front of it, and way more importantly than that, it made me feel bad!!! Being inundated with so much unreality really ate at me, as much as I wanted to think I was immune. It took a long time to realize what was happening. (Have to watch the computer in terms of time though! Lol. Need to take breaks from that too. Being on seems to come in spells though, but I do get a lot more done which also helps distract from the loneliness thing.)

This is not about me though. It's simply to keep it in "I" terms to say what has helped me that you might find useful.

Btw, welcome to the forums! May you find that your meds help you soon. It can take some time to get it just right, but it is worth it.