...is this anxiety or bordering on paranoia?

Today I woke up and felt very anxious, and that I had reached an understanding of how the hospital works.

In my mind, I think that some, if not all medications given out are FAKE, and not what the nurses/doctors say they are. Secret studies are conducted to see who "improves" after taking the fake medication. Those who seem to improve are deemed liars and are punished (treated badly, booted from hospital, etc...) Those who don't are treated fine.

Same goes with ECT. People are put to sleep and then woken up, not knowing that treatment never occured. Once again, the punishment/reward system applies to this treatment as well.

Now, I feel this happens to probably about half the patients. I know that my seroquel is real because I recently got it increased, and I got a true side effect of dry mouth. But I'm worried because I might be getting ECT soon. What if they never truly give me the treatment?

I'm also worried about talking to my nurses/doctor about it...because what if they are in on it? These thoughts are in my mind lots today.

Please be honest with me. Is this illogical thinking? I appreciate all opinions.