(((((((((( Eileen ))))))))) I am sorry that happened I think that for many of us who live double lives, often friends will not understand if we admit the truth. Because the friendship with them has been based on presenting the other side of the self. What I call the mask I put on when I go out into the world. Eileen, I am glad that you are here where you can be your true self. Warts, roses, love, pain and all.
by the way, talk about living a double life, I used to volunteer as a healer. I always had the ability. But went through training also. People had really good results and enjoyed it also. After it was done, I was expected to give suggestions. And that was fine. I could do it. But they did not know how broken I was. What a double life !! To my credit whenever they wanted to know if they could come to me for a fee for services. I would always say that I do not accept paying clients. How could I charge knowing I am so broken inside. I finally stopped doing it though. I feel too broken to continue. Even though I loved doing it. I always always worked in the name of love and light. With love in my heart for each person.