I think his approval is really important to me. I don't know why. He doesn't interact with posters much at all. Everything is strictly admin.

I don't know what is up with me and thinking about him. I tend to think highly of him and admire him. You can even say that I love the guy in a non-romantic way. It comforts me to know that he is around somehow. Other times I think he hates me and wants me dead. Sometimes he becomes bad and hurts me by doing certain things.