wowwwwwww promisestokeep, Thank you. Thats one amazing and inspirational story you told. Grateful to read it.
Richard, In addition to everything that promises suggested, would you also be willing to see a doctor to get on some meds? My pdoc is a homeopath. But I get some rx meds from my regular doctor. Getting a good diagnosis and some medication for the depression from a psychiatrist is better I am sure. But if you cant get to one of those, then a regular MD could probably prescribe meds for depression. I am glad you are here Richard. I think you have come to a place where people care a lot. And will support you to find your way out of the downward spiral into depression. And remember, as promises said, "you are not broken !! As the lyrics to a song say:
....I hear, the tears have spoken
I’m hurt, but I’m not broken.....