I stopped sending too many e-mails to him. I sent him 11 in about 5 days the last time I was blocked. This time I've only sent 6.

Last time the content of the e-mails was distressing to say the least. This time I'm mostly calm and rational in them, well...except for one.

He never answers any posts/e-mails that are not directly related to administrative issues. He has some pretty clear boundaries and he doesn't break them.

I keep wanting him to be my friend and in my mind I think he is my friend, even though he doesn't socialize or talk to me. I'm messed up.