greenleaves, i think you have just explained the whole problem beautifully. You want him to be your friend but he remains an adminstrator of a site and has boundaries that he is pretty firm with.

That seems to be what is really going on. I know it is hard for you. In a way ive been there too, not with an administrator, but someone else in my life who I really wanted to be friends with. I did a bit of pushing and in the end I had to bite the bullet and accept it. This person was a work colleague and we came into contact only for work issues but I sort of felt like I wanted more. Anyway, it wasnt to be and oh it hurt. Inside I wanted to jump up and down, say some stuff, make demands, I really wanted to make a real fuss about it. But I just had to give it up and deal with the pain. It hurts a little now even to think about it but in the end I had to accept the situation. There was nothing I could do and I could not force this person to be my friend. In fact, had I acted on my impulses I probably would have pushed them further away.

It doesnt really help with your situation, but I wanted to let you know that I can understand where you are coming from and also understand why you have been doing what you have with the emails.

Its very hard when it looks like something you want isnt going to work out, especially when its got emotions attached to it.

Maybe you need to be clear with him. Maybe say whats really going on: that you just want to be friends?

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