Clouds...you are not alone. I have been there as well, still there lots of times. This is only temporary. I know it doesn't feel that way right now, but it is. I liken it to the flu, a really bad flu that lasts a long time. When you can sleep, do it...and don't feel guilty about it. I found a great resource in the Samaritans. They aren't just for suicide, they will talk anytime about anything. You can go to the er for this as well, if it gets too out of control. This monster is as bad as an asthma attack or a broken bone, it's hell for the person going thru it. It is a medical problem.