Sigh... I had so much written and this STUPID WINDOWS PROGRAM DELETED IT!!! I miss my Mac...

Anyway!! Thank you all for your thoughts! They're great and hugely helpful! I will say that I do not at this point have a doctor of any kind. I've never been officially diagnosed with Depression, or anything I else I might have, but it's kind of obvious that there's something wrong with me, and that's probably a safe guess. We do have plans to get me someone as soon as some money gets freed up (anyone want a horse?!). That said, when the time comes for me to get a therapist, hubby will definitely be joining me. I don't think we'll do couple therapy, as we make it through our problems very well together, and we're not lost yet. But I do want the three of us to meet up sometime and have a good talk.

Perna, that's an excellant point. I do need to realize that he loves me and that just because I think everyone is out to make me miserable, he's not. And I do understand that I'm very frustrating to deal with to a normal person, I just need to try to remember that when we get frustrated with each other.

And Elana, thanks! I'll definitely be telling him that now. I don't have a therapist yet, but that's a huge reason that I joined PC. I needed some new ears to talk to you, some friends that are there for the reason that I needed, and it's helped me tons to be able to put all my problems out there and get fresh perspective. So, in a way, this is me helping myself. I'll have to let him see how everyone is on here so that he understands that I'm trying to heal, not just sit on the computer all night.