(((((((granite))))))))

My T tells me not to try to figure things out. Can you just go to your session and tell her what you are feeling when you are sitting there trying to talk? Can you just tell her how scared you are? When I emailed my T and told her how embarrassed I was about the last session, she said she hoped that I would not think so much about what I think she thinks!

Your T is on your side. She's not your enemy. Do you ever say the words "I'm scared" to her? There's a quote "Rome wasn't built in a day". A small step is okay. Remember, I'm in your pocket tomorrow.