((((WePow))))
Yup, it is dissociation when it happens. In a way when the therapist has me cover one eye there is a co-consciousness within because I can see the parts more clearly even among tears and stuff but the covering of one eye and feeling the feelings helps me narrow down the heightened emotions from a part or parts who need therapy that day.
Then we, the therapist and I take the time to work with the part that wants the help at that time. It isn't always the part that is the most struggling at that moment as you know, sometimes the protectors have to be helped first and then the hurting part can be helped. It is actually the therapy afterward that makes the change. The covering of one eye just brings the dissociative distortions into a place of calmness.
The therapy using the switching and other techniques is and here I quote:
"The object is to switch back and forth between the covered eyes until the experience is similar or the same, one side to the other. This process brings a stronger sense of connectedness between the two hemispheres of the brain. There are more complex techniques such as 'glitch' work, where holds or stuck states are resolved by seeking out these “glitches” in eye movement and massaging them away."
https://www.sightpsych.com/index.php...d=97&Itemid=57
The issues I come into the therapy session with are often smoothed and calmed using this. It is similar to EMDR but for me has been a more gentle experience.
I'm having a bit of rest from therapy this month, thankfully and laying pretty low here on PC, maybe sitting in a few corners and meditating, metaphorically speaking. It feels to me like I am almost like an average person.
Therapy goes on and on and sometimes a break is appropriate even necessary. I could never have said this in the first 5 years of therapy. T'woud better had none of these atrocities happened to us but since they did the therapy route is the best solution for me. I do meditate at times still on a scripture verse, using all the calming techniques first. It does bring peace. I also started using my CES unit (cranial stimulator) again because I was so anxious this month from some triggering anniversaries.
Hunny
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Originally Posted by WePow
Hunny -that is VERY interesting! Not sure I could do it when it happens because I think it is real at the time. I guess I just don't know what is real sometimes when I am dissociating. I sent this post to T - he wrote back that it sounds dissociative.
It really sucks that for some of us we are always on defense with life. And the ones we turn to who we need to have help us, our minds pick up on the smallest things in tone or inflection that end up setting off all defenses. I can't describe how tired I am of living that type of a life. Someone once told me that meditation was a type of dissociation. Who knows, maybe I will stop doing anything with therapy at all and just go sit in a dang corner and meditate my mind into a well of zero thought. Come to think of it, that sounds like a good idea. Society has no problem with meditation... and the vow of total silence is also sounding like a good plan of action while I am at it.
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