Good work at having a massage. I am a massage therapist and even if your 'memory' of the treatment is missing, your body will remember and you will receive a benefit.

My best massage experience is when 1.5 hours hours goes by as if 10 minutes! It is deliberate dissociation on my part that only seems to happen with a skilled practitioner.

Even when treatments are focused and require activity, breath work, movement as in fascia work, those therapists have a term called 'fascial drift'. And they then gently bring you back to the work being done.

It is not unusual to not remember specific touch, but as you are trying to connect, then during the moment in the massage you find something that feels right or good, ask the therapist to repeat the action, that may help you remember and find what you are looking for.

Remember that massage is a practice that touches us all in different ways and the therapist will adjust so you are as comfortable as possible.
all the best
Gently1