I second vjd sending to all those in pain. This is a complicated illness and mere survival is quite a feat from day to day, sometimes hour to hour or minute to minute. Congratulate yourself that you're not in the hospital and you got out of bed at all. If you are in the hospital, congratulate yourself that you had the courage to make the right decision to keep yourself alive.

Me: My mood went down yesterday afternoon. I was struggling with life feeling futile despite not really feeling depressed. My mind felt a little blank and fuzzy...like it was not fully me. I'm doing a little better this morning, but still concerned that a downer mood will descend on me again. Trying to read my therapy book and do something productive today, not sure what. I might just play a computer game because it takes up a lot of time and that is time I have to think about what's wrong with my life and the world...so better distracted than not.