Hey Eileen
I know exactly where you are because I've been there! I really think you should consider confiding in your T. You need to get how your feeling out there, and opening up to a nonbiased party could really help you. For the longest time, I thought it would just be better to keep it all inside. I couldn't stand the thought of what other people would think of me if I let it out.
For me getting help is about breaking the cycle of mental health issues in my family. I have it on both sides, and knowing how it affected me growing up... I don't want my future children to experience that.

Sunset,
That is such a wonderful gift to have! I can't imagine anything quite as rewarding as being able to relieve other people's pain. I'm sure it was very hard, though, being able to heal other's pain and not your own...
I do hope you can find your own inner peace to be able to start practicing again.