((((((((((((((((jexa))))))))))))))))

i've just now read your recent threads and i'm a bit breathless. i see this intelligent, compassionate, creative woman--you--but i guess you can't see that right now. you are not worthless. your pain is real and will be no matter what, even if you don't hurt yourself. i wish there were some other way you could express your pain. is there any way you could create something tangible to represent your pain? a painting or sculpture or writing a story about a woman like you? make it ugly, make it dark, make it bleed if you must, but please know that you are not your pain. you don't have to hurt yourself to validate the pain. my heart breaks for you jexa.