I just wrote a really long response and lost it in cyber space.......

Rasum Frasum.

Dearest notz

I am so sorry that you suffer from horrid body memories. Touch is one of the 5 senses. (Amazingly I just realized that fact). It affects a great deal of the way we function. You give me hope when you say that after the work you have done, when you are cautious that you can be present in a hug and enjoy it.

So onwards we go sister.........

gently1

It was my first proper massage last week. The therapist that did it was very professional. Had heaps of towels.... which made me feel less exposed. She had a scented candle burning that was a nice aroma. What is fascia work? She was very professional and very kind.

Next Tuesday I go for a second massage and my body isn't going in blind this time. Good? Bad? Hopefully I can relax. It may take quite some time before I can feel it...... but it could be sooner rather than later. I suppose my brain will do what it needs to. Thanks for the hints.