Hi, fool, you are never wrong for trying to live your life the best you can for yourself. That's what one's life is, we're all in this for ourselves and what we get out of it. Currently you get helping this woman but you do not love her and would like to move on with your life. She needs to be looking to care for herself!

I would feel less worried about her, she has a couple of fairly grown sons who are old enough to help her also if she needs it. You cannot carry another adult person, that does not help the other person grow and be themselves. I would talk further and work with the woman you are living with and create a way and path for you or she to move out of the house so both are supported for awhile and it's not a "shock".

But you need to work on doing one thing at a time; you see how getting involved with the German girl at this time has made things so much harder for you? I would focus on yourself and getting yourself stable and your resources known and gathered around you, becoming free from other people's attachments and then reach out and make some friends (not loves, friends, male and female). After your life is more balanced and you have work, money, roof over your head, friends and activities, then look to finding loving companionship?