Oh I definitely agree Lynn, if I did find someone it would take a veeeery long time to turn into a relationship. I think, in fact, that if I did find someone it may be THE one, if you know what I mean, because that much work, effort, and trust would have to go into making it into something. We would have to be very good friends beforehand so that I knew exactly who he was, I've definitely experienced plenty of nasty surprises thinking someone was great, only to discover there was a different side to them.
He'd have to know everything. And we'd probably have to go to therapy. I don't think anyone would care enough about me to want to go through all that, I think I'm more trouble than I'm worth. And even if this person DID come along, I'd probably mess it up anyway.