Thanks, Perna. It's not the 'benign' coping strategies I'm worried about, it's behaviors that really are NOT okay that are worrisome.

Notheless your reminder about routine was a good one. Luckily it was a very engaging Monday at work, then I needed to be with my daughter and since I was bringing her and friends swimming anyway I might as well get in the pool. Feeling a bit more settled now, so that I've gone from that desperate 'don't know If I'll make it' place to "maybe I don't need to go". But I think for Tuesday anyway, I'll stick to the schedule and see how it goes. Off for some herbal tea and an hour with no screen time before bed.