i can't bring myself to do this...to get out and live....i still feel for germany..and prayer for a glimmer of hope between us...i am wrong for this...that is why i am patitic....i am not sleeping well and am losing weight rapidly...i have no desire but to stay on my couch, and fade into the void...i am a self- defeatest unbalenced man...who can not function nor to i feel like i want to....i am old and will never find a woman , that i can relate too any longer....listen thank you....but there is no help for me.....i am patitic and insuifficant to even worry about....