I hear you all...But, I am so lost, I cannot live this life of lonleness any more...I really have so much to give someone...I really do...but who wants a 55 year old man any way...When I was in germany, I couldn't function sexually, it was not about that for me...{ can I talk about this here} ?......I just thought that after all this tine, I really found some one to grow old with...I crave a healthy relatenship with someone, a relatenship where things happen in a positive loving way...I used to be moe intimate, but after all these years without relations...i blocked it out...so here i am....not performing like a man should, and she say he doesn't like me...well then the realization hit me....i am old , i cannot perform like i used to...so therfore how could i please a woman again....sorry about all this..but i just want to go into oblivian right now...I crave a loving person, i really am a good guy...i aslways help people with their problems, and always have a kind word when people i know are sad...they talk to me about their problems and try them to make them feel good about themselves...but here am I all bottled up all these years....with my own problems, and i cannot even help myself...ironic twist of fate...now i feel I cannot carry on in a society that calls for a man to be dominant and strong in the jungle...I have feelings too...but alas age shows no kindness to me and here i go, over the deep end...and i do not know how to swim...I fear the worse for me...I see no light carrying on in this way , of my mundane life...i will never meet the " one"....it is a shame really...but it is over for me really...look thank you all again , you are all seem so solid and together...and I'm knocking on the mad/ sane door.....