Right now, I collect disability. I am not totally sure if I can work, even part time, but when I am home during these rainy days, I feel like I am so bored.

I can't seem to get out of bed in the morning if I don't have a designated place to be or task to do. What if I worked mornings? I would have to get out of bed.

On the other hand, what if I am unable to get out of bed and get to the job?

I kind of want to start my real estate business again ao that I have something to do, but I am afraid. I am not yet stable and I am afraid of the stress. At the same time, I feel like all this down time is just as bad for me.

It has been OK over the summer because I could go to my parents' house and take the kids swimming, but for the past few dsya the weather has been cold and rainy, my oldest is at camp and my youngest has been taking an afternoon nap. This is a taste of what winter might be like and I am so BORED.

Ugh. I don't know what to do. I don't want to get into trouble, but it would be so easy to start up again. All I have to do is renew my license and tell my mentor (who knows about my illness) that I am ready to work again, and I am in.

Any advice? Any going back to work after disability stories? I want to figure this out.