It's been almost a month for me. It seemed to be going pretty well. Felt like I was doing ok. But after the session 2 weeks ago, it's been a daily struggle again. I had actually gotten to the point of looking forward to seeing my T just recently, but now I'm not so sure. Last week was a good session in terms of talking about issues, but as soon as i left the office the urge to do something just descended. For me, it's rage and anger at myself that I want to express. I went back and read my reasons not to. Even printed them out to read, and it helps, but still the urge is there.

I know I shouldn't. I know I'll feel better in the end if I don't, but it just wears at you. UGH!!! Didn't think I'd be back to feeling like this so soon.

Thanks for listening, Quay